@cantleave, exactly! Back to the Matrix to be reassembled into the whole, Jon Picarde, from Star Trek New Generation, he got trapped in the Borg, I never saw the episode where he was stuck, with no will other than to serve the "Collective".
"Soil and Green" "1984 Orwell" "Brave New World" Huxley "The Giver" by Lois Lowry books that will help you enter into the fold,
without questioning your spiritual food "Soil and Green" or Big Brother, or freedom of emotion or choice.
This summary of "The Giver" might wet your appetite to read the book
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"The Giver is a dystopian children's novel by Lois Lowry. It is set in a society in the year 2065 which is at first presented as a utopian society and gradually appears more and more dystopian. The novel follows a boy named Jonas through the twelfth year of his life. The society has eliminated pain and strife by converting to "Sameness," a plan that has also eradicated emotional depth from their lives. Jonas is selected to inherit the position of "Receiver of Memory," the person who stores all the past memories of the time before Sameness, in case they are ever needed to aid in decisions that others lack the experience to make. When Jonas meets the previous receiver-The "Giver"-he is confused in many ways. The Giver is also able to break some rules, such as turning off the speaker and lying to people of the community. As Jonas receives the memories from the Giver, he discovers the power of knowledge. The people in his community are happy because they don't know of a better life, but the knowledge of what they are missing out on could create major chaos. He faces a dilemma: Should he stay with the community, his family living a shallow life without love, color, choices, and knowledge, or should he run away to where he can live a full life?